Human being – such lousy, such sinful person, yet God still loves.
I can make my life how miserable, I can be angry with Him, I can question Him how I want, I can keep holding on to what I want, but at the end, what am I doing?
I’m constantly hurting myself, I’m constantly pushing myself to the dead end.
I’ve never really gracious to myself, I’ve been harsh to myself again and again, I corner myself till I feel trapped and despair.
I forgot that EVERYTHING belongs to God, including myself and you. (I nearly forgot that I belong to Him).
I forgot that I wanted to love God, I wanted to love what He loves and hate what He hates.
I forgot that I wanted to stay obedient to God, the only way to let Him know that I love Him, cause I really do.
I forgot His will, I forgot to see through His eyes.
I forgot that my God is the Almighty, I forgot that He is everything to me.
I forgot that He is so mighty that He sees things through.
I nearly forgot to quiet down myself to listen to Him.
I kept listening to myself, I allowed the evil to speak into my ears.
I repent here with this Psalm, pray that God has mercy on me.
1 Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight;
so you are right in your verdict
and justified when you judge.
5 Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
6 Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;
you taught me wisdom in that secret place.
7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
9 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
so that sinners will turn back to you.
14 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
you who are God my Savior,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
15 Open my lips, Lord,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
17 My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart
you, God, will not despise.
18 May it please you to prosper Zion,
to build up the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,
in burnt offerings offered whole;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.
BE STILL, and know that I AM GOD. – Psalm 46:10