Are you alright?

The silence causes worries; either burdened with job or life, pray that God is taking care by giving the assurance that He is the Almighty.

Dr Sam shared this to me and asked me to hang in there; would like to share this with you as well:

Psalm 121 - 

I lift up my eyes to the hills – where does my help come from? 

My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip – he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord watches over you – the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.

The Lord will keep you from all harm – he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going 

both now and forevermore.

The Drought Season of Life

Have you ever had a drought season in your life? Have you ever experienced the season when you feel so exhausted with every demands that come from life, as though no grace, as though no mercy shown?

Life might not have been treating you well. One challenge and another challenge come up demanding from you. exhausting you; leaving you wonder whether this will end? And when will this end? Leaving you feeling all alone, leaving you disappointment, leaving you heartaches;

HEY,

Please remember you are not alone! Please remember and trust that God is ALWAYS on your side, He’s never on the other side!

Besides, the comfort of all is that LIFE hasn’t been treating most of us well most of the time, you aren’t alone! The challenges may appear differently to each one of us; however, we strive through difficult times, we strive to become a better person even through all this difficult times, we strive not to fall but to hold on to God, may it be just the edge of Jesus’ cloth we are holding, or just touching, but never to let go even this little that we are holding on to, because the next moment is Him saying to us, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.” Mark 5:30. Hence, please endure this, especially during times of doubts and hesitation.

Dear Friends and family,

When we are so busy and caught up with “life”, please pause for a moment and ponder: If our lives aren’s busy with those whom that we love, what life are we having? If else, please examine whether we are truly having a life? Embrace each other, support each other and love each other, as how God wants us to love, as how God wants us to care, as how God has shown how we should love – an AGAPE love. It’s not conditioned, it’s not demanding, it’s not seeking for return, but it’s unconditional, it’s sacrificial, it’s God’s kind of love.

If this is the time to tear down, the time to weep, the time to mourn, the time to scatter stones, the time to refrain, the time to throw away, the time to hate, the time to war; then the time to build, the time to laugh, the time to dance, the time to gather back the stones, the time to embrace, the time to love and the time for peace are already just around the corner!

Everyone has gone through different stages of life, and endured those with joy and with tears, with loved and with aches; and those years, those tests definitely built, toughen, and granted us the confidence that we can overcome our seasons of drought as well! God’s faithfulness over the years has assured that His faithfulness and grace which brought us through those years, is definitely still be the same for this season.

It’s a season; and a season does not mean a day, a week or a month, it lasts, lasts longer than we thought; but hey, again, season is still just a season, cause it will pass. I guess that’s why farmers hold feast and celebration end of their harvest time, because they have gone through drought which cause them to be able to embrace the joy of harvest with thanksgiving! After the thanksgiving, the celebration; it prepares us for our next drought season =) That’s life, after each time, we’ve grown wiser, stronger, without consciously realize, we are already teaching others, mentoring others, passing on our wisdom to others, building others to face their seasons in life =) Aren’t that actually beautiful as well? =D

Thus, please choose to put trust in our Almighty God that the journey will be walked victoriously, thus, ENDURE the seasons of drought, so that we will have a story to tell…

My dearest brothers and sisters in Christ

Dear those who matter very much to me,

It’s a heartache to know that life is difficult, life hasn’t been very kind to you; but please count me on if I ever able to help, to listen or to walk alongside.

For you have walked alongside with me, you’ve encouraged me, you’ve assured me of God.

Love you =)

Proving Myself – “I must meet certain standard to feel good about myself”

When expectation is set upon own-self, especially when I know I really want to prove something, and I’m able to prove that, I feel so good about myself; however when the unexpected negative outcome resulted in the upset, as well as disappointment towards own, the feeling is really unacceptable.

Couldn’t accept how could that had happened?

“There are certain areas in which I feel I must succeed… failures make me appear incompetent…” – by Robert S. McGee.

And that’s exactly how I feel now. Then, I examine, I question myself, I’m in the trap again, the trap of Satan to lie me into this deception of my self-worth.

I asked myself:

1. I worth the life of His begotten Son, that He died on the cross for me, how else I have to prove my worth against anything else? How else I want to seek the “feel good feeling of myself”?

2. What’s that self-exaltation mean to me? Do I really want to continue to lift myself up by proving myself? Do I really want to based my self-worth on my achievement? Do I really want to feel good about myself by keep achieving certain success through my short journey on earth?

3. Do I not want to see myself through Christ’s eyes? Do I not want to base my whole identity as a person in God’s given precious status through His love?

4. Do I not want to do anything, everything just to glorify God, not to exalt myself? Or make myself feel good?

What’s my choice?

“There is no way to escape the experience of failure. If that experience reduces your sense of values, then with the failure will come pain.” – by Robert S. McGee

“When you determine not to make a mistake, it will paralyze you.” – by Robert S. McGee

Please forgive me, O Lord, for that self-centerdness and pride in me, please remember my sin no more…

1 Corinthians 10:31 – So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all FOR THE GLORY of God.

心情正常了

好嘢！心情又恢复正常了！！！ – 开心。

害怕与矛盾

不想收到回音 – 因为收到回音代表着这只是个普通的问候。

想收到回音 – 因为没收到回音代表着这比普通的问候还普通。

所以，矛盾了。

想念

每天因着想念而落泪。。。

一双拖鞋、一张cd、很多次的聊天、倾听电话里哭泣的声音、最后一次因为无赖的要求而逼得要在离开前而请的晚餐。

哭了一天一夜的眼泪就因为要离开了。

离开超过一年了，为什么眼泪还是在流呢？